my comps were ehh. but its only quarter compss. i have a whole other quarter to raise those b's up!! i'm really not in a moood to right a blog post right now. but might as well do it right? cus i already started. so today. history comp -___- i studied soo hard. like freaking 8 hours, and i get a c+ on that comp? i dont think soo. i think something went wrong with that machine. thats not FAIR. LIFE ISNT FAIR. sometimes, i wonder. why do we do all of this crap when were just gonna end up dieing....its not like a 4.0 or stanford is gonna help me in heaven -_________- god. i'm just so mad! >:O but on the better note, knotts was so freaking fun. there was like no line for ANYTHING, so we were able to go to like all the craaazy ones. our little group was me, angel, sunny, jessica park, hanna, and lucien (: and guess what?! i had a FUNNEL CAKE! those craaaazy good thingggies. it was so much fun, i wouldnt have missed it for anythingg. so next we have a good activity..come! cause no matter what, its teh bonding that makes it amazing. the new freindships that you make. i feeel soo emo right now. i just wanna go do something bad. and i dont know why. its just depressing. and i cant think of anything that would lighten my mood up right now. i guess i can go to sleep, but whats the fun in that? its like only 10. but yesh. i'm gonna think about this year. cus 4th quarter is hereee.
i didnt like this year. academically and socially. academically, my grades werent that good. but i can still improve it. but socially, what can i do about it? i just feel by myself, in a little corner. in my own little bubble. but it just seems like that. and i dont know. this year jsut wasnt good. and i would love to go back and change it. there are so many mistakes that i made. and i'm sorry ): i dont know. i just really dont know. i cant seem to remember all of the good times. it seems so overshadowed by MY mistakes. and i'm sorrry guys. i really trully am. if i hurt you in any waay. from teh bottom of my hearrt, i really do mean it. and i'm gonna try to be better. but right now, i dont see how. so recap of this year: IT SUCKED. i hope the rest of the year is more fun. well it should be. we have ID, and aloha, and spring break, and yeaa. i really do hope it changes a couple of thingss. i dont want to bee the samee. i dont want to be sad and mad. argh.
bad post. sad post
and the shadow of the daywill embrace through old and grayand the sun will set for you.
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