Sunday, March 21, 2010

my wall is slowly building up

im in pieces
baby fix me
shake me till you wake me from this bad dream
literally. i need to wake up. and realize that all of this stuff isnt important. i need to put up a stronger wall, and ignore the judgments and comment people make about me. cus they don't understand, and will never understand the way i feel.
christina aguilera says it best mang.
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
and that is EXACTLY how i feel. no joke.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

yay for sadies. i would write more. but im not in the mood.

thanks for all the judging. that is EXACTLY what i need right now. T____T try to walk in my shoes first before you judge, yeah?

maybe i should have moved to india when i had the chance.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

dear god,
whenever something good happens. SOMETHING ELSE JUST HAS TO BREAK IT. and ruin it. and mess it up. honestly god, is it that hard to keep one little girl happy for atleast a week? is that so much to ask?

but thank you (sarcastic). DO YOU THINK THAT MY SKIN WILL GET THICKER? and i'll be less sensitive or something? cus im not one oridnary girl. and that won't happen. i am a sensitive.stressed.paranoid.emotional girl. and breaking me like this into pieces just make me worse. i cry a lot. i think too much for one thing. and im super paranoid. and im not a daring person. thats a lot of negative qualities to put in one person. dont you think? so why do you choose ME to get all of this?

if you're planning on breaking me bit by bit. and making it hurt. well good job. its working perfectly. congradulations. now why dont you just break my completely. im in such a position that i can probably handle it now. i just hate how its like good thing. WAIT HOLD UP. HUGE BAD THING that takes over good thing. cant you just give all the bad things at once? let me just be a failure.

love a child you messed up on,
archie.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

no one posts here anymore. has everyone moved onto tumblr now? x]
no one posts here anymore. has everyone moved onto tumblr now? x]