Wednesday, December 30, 2009

2010. almost there.

Am I crazy for wanting you?
Maybe do you think you could want me too?
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do?

i'm falling in love with tufts university. <3

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

walk to remember.

best.
movie.
ever.

Monday, December 28, 2009

break=almost over.

oh my. next monday school starts again. D:

today i went to teh mall to watch sherlock holmes with angela and allen! fun stuff. :D

before i graduate. i want to:

1. go on a blind date. just to have the experience. and the thrill.
2. co-ed sleepover! :D
3. hug a very hot guy.
4. get a date for a dance
5. ask someone to sadies!

i dont think 4&5 will happen this year. HAHAH. but this is a before i graduate list. so i still got like 2 years? woohoott.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

its chrsitmas eve!

yesterday was wednesday movie madness + IC potluuuuuuuk. (:

it was soo much fun. i just wish my brother wasnt bugging the three of us throught the whole day. luckly my dad came early, adn toook him out to sam's club and whatnot.

we watched pokemon -___- and then wizards and then tinkerbell. (: but then isabel couldnt stay ovvvvver. but now we have spring break plans. :D BAHAHAH.

IC banquet was fun. YAY for attaching files, laughing, making wierd noices, and stealing blankets. :D

now starts 4 days of family fun! and it didnt start out that great. my brother started fighting already wiht my padres. SO me and my mom are makng plans to get out of the house. HAHHAH


i really want to watch sherlock holmes on monday. >O

dont forget them college projects.

YAY. for formal heels shopping. ;]

Sunday, December 20, 2009

horoscopes are interesting

i wish they sorta come true at times. just the ones i like though. HAHHAH

im letting lose. and just having fun. and im sorta forgetting everythign thats happend this week. (: besides its just ONE week. in A life time right? no big deaaals. :D

but what i dont understand is my sudden change of mind. my "whatever. i can do whatever i want" mood. and i guess its helping. in a way? i think its becuase im slowly letting go. subconsciecly. LOLS. but paley thinks i shouldnt. he wants me to hold on.

iderknow. imma just follow my heart. (: and not live in the past.

wow. drastic change from those two DEPREESSSING posts. lols. moody much archie? x]

things im looking forward too:
1. talent show meeting tomorrow, and then park play
2. wednesday movie madness con isabel and allen
3. xmas party with anusha?
4. sleepover with isabel. NO GUYS. AHHAHA

:D dont forget them college projects, loves!

oh! i never told you abotu that interesitng horoscope. bahaha. actually w.e its oaky. i dont think you'll care anwyays. x]

Friday, December 18, 2009

a smile can hide a lot.

i'm always gonna be the one person left out. always. theres always more prettier. or more gorgeous. or more beautiful girls out there. and i'll always just be in the shadow. its just a given. and its starting to really bug me now. last year. i didnt care that much. i dont know why. but this year i do. you know why? cus i see a patern coming along. i dont want this to happen to me. but its going.

i was looking at all those prettiful pictures that people take before a dance. and i saw this one picture with 4 girls. and i was like "aw. thats kinda sad that they dont have dates. they went stag". and now i realize. that im gonna replace one of those girls.

school is just reaally really sucky right now. on the good note, my grades are going up. except in spanish. but i can raise that up. does that mean i see a 4.0 comign this semester?

UGH. i cant stop thinking about freaking formal season. my mood is complete OPPOSITE from last year. i sorta dont wanna go now. i kinda agree with angel on this one "theres no one to get prettied up for" -__- its just not gonna happen.

so i guess i shouldnt go. who cares if i dotn go to all the high school dances. its not like im gonna get an award or something. --x its just me saying "i've gone to each and everyone......stag". FML. that sounds so loner-ish. so i can just say "i went to a lot of dances" big difference --x

unless something miraculous happens. or i have a drastic change of mind. im not going this year.

what a perfect way to start winter break eh?

"there's no such thing as a miracle"

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

sometimes xmas spirit just isnt enough

so today was our human free-response. enough said. it was horrible. and everyone basiclally died. well all of pd 3 did. T_T

and then i see my spanish grade dropping. every day.

and i see my hopes being crushed every time. i hate believing or hoping in something. and then something happens. and your like. "oooh okay. this isnt gonna happen anymore" and you sorta get sad. but i get kinda pissed at myself. like its my fualt i believed in the first place. and its just learning to keep your expectations really really low. so when anything happens its like ":O no way! i cant believe it :D"

but honestly. im a girl. and girls believe. and i just cant get myself to do have low expectations. but NOT doing it hurts me even more when crash. the impact is just harder. but you would expect to get used to falling down, and getting up right? WRONG. it hurts the same every single time.

and i honestly just dont know what to do. like its just like "stop believing" but thats never gonna happen. so im just screwing myself over. and its hurting me. thats it.

i've also given up on 11.11 wishes. i'm such a boring depressing person now. im disappointed in myself.

its like "shree! shake out of it. and get up. and walk it off" but thats not gonna happen either. its easier said then done.

and im just going through a lot of things right now. so if i get mad at you. or shout at you. im truly am sorry.

and i also realized this week. that my life right now is pretty boring. and plain. its the same schedule. and i sorta gettign tired off it. theres no excitiement. or surprise. or fun.

"i found out that there's no such thing as a miracle"

theres a lot you can hide behind a smile.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

have you ever?

so i was on aim. as usuall. and i read jennifer ding's status message. and i connected immedieatly. like i so felt it. HAHAH

"Did u ever lay your head down on the shoulder of a good friend? And then had to look away somehow? Had to hide the way u felt for them? Have u ever prayed the day would come u'd hear them say they felt it too. Did u ever love somebody who never knew?"

and i IMed and her and asked if it was lyrics to a song. but she never IMed back.

and i just had this urge to post it on blog. so one day, i can look back on this. (:

siggh. :D

GO WATCH UP ON FRIDAY. AT THE MPR. (: its free.

i cant waaaaaaaaaait for friday. its gonan be new moon! WOHOT. with allen paley and claudine. what fun. (: IM SHO SHO SHO SHO EXCITED.

you know whats NOT exctiting? formal season. its brining my hype down. oh dear. but im still gonna go. HAHHA.

and now i have to go. because im working on aphg stuff. (: how fun! --x

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

i love you forever. forever is over

:O im stuck on "love drunk ACUSTIC" its so beautiful. especially the guitar part.

and i really really like the line "i love you forever. forever is over" its really saddening. but i just feel connected somehow to that line. x]

today i taught isabel how to ride a bike. with paley, ralph, allen, angel, and zosa. (:

formal season is startign to bore me. HAHAH. no one has asked/gotten asked yet. and im just losing the hype of it. x]

my grades are dropping. D: gah. i need to raise them back up before semester ends. i want that 4.0 and im pretty close.

friday is almost here. :D UP and NEW MOON, :D what a night. teehee.

we got lots of them. LOTS AND LOTS.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

formal season!

today was actually pretty fun! :D i was productive. but it didnt seem like it.

(:

formal season is here! :D guys start asking.

congradualations to:
chris&ralph&isabel&marissa :D

so today i went to the temple. adn i was sittign in the back just reading aphuman stuff. adn when i was comign home, my mom told me that the lady she was sitting next to thought i was really prettty. (: adn that made me happy. cus not many ppl say that. HAHAHA.

life has so many surprises. :D

new moon and up this friday! EXCITED MUCH.