blegh.

blegggh. i'm sick ): its really going around now. isabel, then alice, then tiff, then me, then megan machaads. -__- and i have to get BETTER. so i can TOTALLY pig out at frantone's tomorrrow. >] TEEEE HEEEEE!

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:15:59 PM): hey i had a weird dream

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:00 PM): about you

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:01 PM): last night.

smileitsarchie (3:16:04 PM): :O

smileitsarchie (3:16:05 PM): tell me!

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:09 PM): it was formal

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:11 PM): and like

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:14 PM): afraz asked you

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:14 PM): D:

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:18 PM): and no joke

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:29 PM): like you were wearing this blue dress

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:30 PM): and like

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:38 PM): your corsage was like this

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:41 PM): really pretty white flow

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:42 PM): er

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:45 PM): and i remember

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:48 PM): you like

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:50 PM): stepped

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:52 PM): on my pedicure.

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:53 PM): XD

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:55 PM): AHAHAHAHA

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:16:57 PM): thats all.

smileitsarchie (3:17:03 PM): HAAAAAAAAAAH. thats cute >]

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:03 PM): and then like

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:07 PM): andy asked megan yeu

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:08 PM): or something

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:13 PM): and i was like wtf

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:18 PM): and i woke up

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:23 PM): but yeaah.

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:24 PM): (:

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:28 PM): you and afraz.

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:28 PM):

smileitsarchie (3:17:31 PM): oh myy.

smileitsarchie (3:17:40 PM): did you tell afraz this little dream of yours?

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:43 PM): no

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:50 PM): whyd i talk

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:52 PM): about formal

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:55 PM): in front of him.

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:58 PM): he doesnt' get this

smileitsarchie (3:17:59 PM): HAAAAAAAAAHA

MRSJ0EJ0N4S (3:17:59 PM): GIRL THINGS

i <3 SHIVANTTTTI! she is suuuuuuuuch a cutttie. right right right?? OH MY. now its red. and red reminds me of red cross. which equals results tomorrow :D wish us luuuck loveliies! 10.10 or 11.11 ;D

i'm sleepy. and tired. goood night yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal :D

the mask.

should i take off that mask. let the world see me for who i am? or should i keep it on. and play it fake day by day.

i think so far, playing it fake has worked. because not many poeple can see through that mask. only the ones you have shown your feelings to. so i am gonna play it that way. keep it down. keep it the samee. its worked in the past. it should work now.

but now is different from the "then". it was easier a year ago. two years ago. will it be the same now?

the past was filled with love and compasssion. care, and straightforward. but now. its confusion. and stress. and drama. but this confusion over wins all. its "clouded the path forward" so you could say. but i have to follow that path. i stay back, and i'm in the dark. and its not too far. i can see the light through the clouds. i KNOW its there. but mabbe, just that journey. will take some effort.

maybe i can learn from this journey. because it seems so familiar. should it be harder now. can it? i've taken this exact same path before. but then, it was clear. now its not. yet. i have to go on.

and the harder part. is what i want. but i cant have. how can i have something thats already taken by somebody else? its under their gaurd. and theres no way of stealing it, even though i wasnt gonna do that.

so now i have to go on this path. these stairs. and the one comfort. is to know that if i do slip, i do have someone to catch me. thanks isabel and priyanka. (:


sorry guys, if this made no sense at all. i was in a reallly figuritive mode. and i had to let it outt.

all the same.

so i read all of the blog postss. and my faaaaaavorite one today was tiff yeh's free hugs one. (: i reallly like that! we should totally do taht at the cerritos mall. but someone might jump you >] but we should! over summerr. (: we all make free hugs signs and spreaaaaaaad the love. i also love this songggg, the one on the youtube video. all the same by sick puppies. it sorta reminds me of your gaurdian angel.doesnt itt?

so my mom trimmed my hair today. and its shoort. D: well not that short. but my little pony tail is tinnierrrrr!.

wcimun awards was amazing. it truely was. for all of us who participated, it was just like. we deserve it. freshmans did amazing. jen shis gaveled in ADVANCED committee. both emily's also gaveled. :D labdhi and sayoni got outstanding. and i got commendation. i could have doen better. but whatever. we still did really good. whintey got two school delegations. one for ecosoc/specialed committees, and another for general assembly. OH. we also gaveled in SECURITY COUNCIL (: overall. AMAZING CONFERENCE. i'm glaad i went. >]

STAR testing today. history. rosenberg screwed us over. didnt you here all of us complaining??

i hate it when your horoscope is sometimes correct. well it usually isnt. but the times that they ARE. its just like. "PORQUE?!!!!!" why me? cant it be wrong all the time, or right all the time. the part that maybe makes me D: is becuase it IS the TRUTH. and i'm AFRAID of it? perhapps.
well this is what it said for me:

You thought you knew what was going on, but as it happens, you're just as confused as ever! It's a good day for you to assume nothing and start over, even with the thorniest of problems.

really. should i not assume? cus i did a lot today. and maybe for the right reasons. but according to this. i shouldnt. well not today. and i should start over. but lose everything that i built upon? starting from scratch? will that even work? i think i know where this is going. i think, while writing this, i figured it out. it says "stay friends" and nothing more. but like alice said, my mind says that. but what does my HEART say? THAT is something i have to find out. step by step. and if i slip and fall. i guesss i can always start over again. no bigs right?

weeeeeeest coast invi!

today was west coast invitational. my committee was pretty chill, but it went reallly reallly fast. we only had 10 poeple in the whole committee. THE WHOLE COMMITTEE was only 10 poeple. that means more points for us. i think im doing pretty well. :D we'll see tomorrow after the awards! right? hhaa. i think chris was thinking of us (me and tiffany). cus i did pretty well. ahaha. 11.11 or 10.10? (sorry, only me chris and tiff will understand).

i really want to go to the carnival. imma be late though ): like 8-9 late. remember me guys. ): i'm going to think about you <3 and remember last year. so i was gonna stay up till 12 to wish you a birthday ralph. but i'm soooooo freaking tired. so imma do it now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RALPH (:

2 hour nap.

soo! today! test cramm. -__- spanish was pretty ok. i would say (: thats good! then history. that teacher just haaaaaates us. and wants us to fail. and not go to AP classes. what IS his problem? god dammit. hey you EURO people. dont make him mad. cus hes gonna go ;LGUEHGKJAHUIEGN on you. so for our quiz i got a 5. 5 out of 31 -____- average score was like 15?? THATS FAAAAAAAAAIL! stupid tard. ARGH. then bio. i wonder when the whole love bird thing will stop >] but i've learned to ignore it. and i dont think i get red. its just a dellusion :D

oh i love old sonngs. :D i'm listening to "best of me" byy starting line <3 and face down came right before that! i love that song. SO back to my day.

and then my mom wanted a meeting with park today to know more about teh college craap. so i ditched MUN and sat in her room and listen to my mom and park talk. fun fun? well it was better than MUN. i honestly cant wait till the conference is over. but the thing is, they might make it a one day conference. which i reaaaaaaaaaaly want! i want to go to carnival on sunday.. OH OH. i can say that in spanish: yo quiero ir a el carnival en la noche. (: I AM SOO COOL. aha (:
sho after the little meeting, i came back home and went to SLEEP! a good 2.5 hour sleeep (: and i thougth that would be refreshing, but i just wanna go back to my beed. ugh. but i need to write those speeches and prepare for tomorrow. wish me luck guyyys (:

IC apps due today. i have so many ideas that i wrote down. interviews soon? please please please. this is like total intervieww seaaaason. thers IC, adn RED CROSS, and KEY CLUB, and MUN stuuff :O

happy eaaaaaaaaarly birthdaay raaaalph <3

ohh my my.

i had to read so many blog updates today :D it was fuun. haha. today was soo busy. and i'm so tired. D: i came back home. went to ID at 5. went to my bro's open house at liek 7.30. then went out to eat. i came bakc like at 8.30? then type up brannen poem, fill out permission slip for MUN. work on that stupid worksheet. and then finally start studying. btu i gave up. ahahha. i finsihed histoyr at school. forget spanihs. and bio during school. lunch time study ftw.


ID PRACTICE WAS SOO MCUH FUNN. so me and marissa and megan were teachign jaimini the indian dance. but she wanted the the music. so we WALK all the way BACK to whitney to find a computer to listen to the music. but after everything, there were no headphones. we went all the way out back to the grass. like where we run and used jaimini's iphone. -____- she totally forgot that she could use it to go! HAHA. and then we teach her. and she is suuuch a cuttie. ahaha. and annd and and. after all that. we went to hula right? and it was shooooooo cute. i looove thatt dance. the boys are finallly shaking their booty. tim and joe are such cutties. ;D the part that we taught them today was cuuute. with spinning and hand holding and but shaking. and the hula hand thingeers.

IC apps are due tomorrow. but i'm not freakign out. cus i finished it yesterday. yaay. now i have to wait for the interview. fun fun right? i wnat to know whos going for sadies head ;D tee heeeee.

today i wished at 10.10 cus i was soo tired. and i'm gonna sleep early. but does it work? so far my 11.11 ones have worked :O suprisingly. i want this one to work. but i wished for like 4 things. but they were all sorta inter-related?

uhh. i want to rant about rosenberg. but my hands hurt. and IA JIGA HH. he is a OI GFIHGOIGH . yeaah. good luck you AP eurooo peeeps. dont die. (: cus imma miss you! OH DUDE! that line for health was craazy. i feel sad for the people who didnt get it cus others cuttedd the linnne. ): but you can always take cerritos college with me ;D cus i cant take health this year. i'm going to india the day school ends. and paley is going to china that same day. so somehow, we migh clash at LAX airport. :D

right now. i'm listening to your gaurdian angel. that used to be my "calm down song". i would just play it over and over again if i am reallly really pissed. and it helped me calm down. wasnt taht like that 8th grade song? OH! I REMEMBER THAT LIST ME AND RALPH MADE. it was like teh songs list. hmm. i wonder werhe i put thaat. all i remember is ralph was i'll be. and i was some jonas brother song. :D tee heee. i'll post it up if i find it.

the years almost over. excited much ;D i want all of those fun stuff to start. and get rid of my iffy teachers this yearrr. :D

thats all forrrrrrr today, folks! haha. thats the porky the pig thinggg ;D

13 followers!

woaah! i have 13 followers. :O thats amaaaazing. (: thanks for reading this. hahaha.

so todaay. i FINALLY updated those red cross pics. and it took me forever to tag theem. go and commment :D the archie andy ones are realllllllly cute ;D of course the archie ones are cute. HAHAH. jussssst kidding. (: but yessh, go look at theem.

science we moved seats. my new table is zosa, afraz, me, and gaberiaal. :D and in front of us is allan and ralph. AND THEY ARE TALL! haha. i always have to ask allan to move his head cause i couldnt see. :D i think this table is going to be quite fun. dont you? ;D

open house today. its was sorta pathetic, i would say. you go in, teacher says hi. you say hi. teacher talks abotu student. generally "ohh shes a sweetheart. pleasure to have in class. amazing. hard working. a little bit social." every single class. but me and my mom still went. and thats exaclty what happend.

what else happend? not much really. these days are getting sorta boring. OH. more red cross interviewws. :D alice, catherine, jeremy, and chris. i waited outside for chris's and jeremy's. the reactiosn were TOTALLY different. ahha.
chris: all chill. it was fine. it was fun. -__- i should have prepared more though.
jeremy: OH MY GOD. i did so bad. i'm screwed. archiiiiie. help D: i really want to get this. HAHA. i found out afterwards that chris didnt do so well either haha. stop lieing to me boy. but i guess it was a sorta good reason. he said that he didnt want me to worrry. <3 cuttie. (:

i lovvvvve the andy archie pictures. i think i already said that. OH OH OH.

know who else i love??i'll just make a listt
-sterling knight NUMBER ONE. ;D
-edward cullen

-jacob black

-seth clearwater. <3 team seth ftw.

-dave barnes
-david archuleta

-orlando bloom


theres a longer list :O i can't believe i forgot it :O HOLY CRAAAP! my brother has it. ahahha. cus whenever i go. "oh my he is so hottt" my brother goes, wow archie. your list of guys is getting longer and longer. ahha :D he is such a cuttie. btw. thats the shirt i bought him from DC. :D i took this pic like last year? haha.

ic apppp!

yo yo yo dudes and duddetttes ;D yea. its 9.21. thats when i'm starting this post!

awwwwwwww man. i was uploading redcross carwash pictures. and it was done. and at the very end it was like "upload failure. please retry". ARGH. IT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOREVER. stupid slow computer. daaaaaaang it. i was hoping on posting these pictures tonight. guess it depends on what my computer feels like, right?

IC apps is hard D: this resume thing for sadies head. ahh. killer. so i'm gonna freak out for that by myself for a while. . . .. .. . . . 15 min pass in my mind. ok done freaking out. but still. its hard. and tough competition. ): but i reallly want to make it, cus i know i'm not gonna get red cross.

hmm. next thing to talk about? uhh. i had something in mind, but i forgot. oh my. i'm forgetting a lot of things today. ): baad memory. OH OH I GOT IT. i'm being a bad girl and writing in my blog right now. but i still have math and spanish. which should take me an hour. but i dont wana do it. REBEL! MWHAHAH. annnnnnd. i wished at 3.33 today. me and tiffany yeh wished for the same thing. <3

annnd i'm gonna stay up tonight till 11.11 and REMEMBER to make a wish. cus i always stay up, but i end up forgetting. hahhaa. (:

i JUST noticed the "labels for this post" on this thing. haha. i'm gonan do this labeling thingmambobbbers. :DDD

ooooh! jeremy gave me the kelley clarkson album. tiffany liu still needs to let me borrow that twilight one, and alice for teh one republic. HAHA.

okk. thats it. back to facebook :D

post end at 9.34

boring much?

nothing happend today. except it was soo hot. but everyone talked about the heat in the other blogs, so i'm not going to. :D HAHA. i actually found poeple who read this thing. amazing right? even i thought that. so yea. nothing happend. make my life more amazing guys. so i can write about it on my blog. uhhh. yea.

so just a few points. like bullets, cus i dont wanna right sentences
-spring is over
-new brannen project
-red cross interview is finished
-IC apps came out.
-i'm screwed for IC cus me and amrita are going for the same thing ( sadies head)
-i'm supposed to find a website for spanish project. but i cant find one
-its 9.45
-i like farenhieght 451
-schools almost over.
-i wish all the "going to be fsho couples" would just get together. quickly ;D
-IT WAS HOT TODay
-we didnt have to run cus it was 91 degreess. (:
-fintess testing this weeek.
-mun conference this weekend. and i want that gavel
-argh. i feel empty and bored.
-facebook has a lot of quizzes
-this is becoming more like my "i never realized post"
-it seems like our little e-drama is over?
-i think everyone is happy. but i wouldnt know, cus they were really good masks
-i am happy. who cares if i dotn get IC or red cross (well i acutally do. HAH). but its still freshie to sophie year. i have time. rigghht.
-our next holiday is memorial day weekend. so another movie marathon?? haha.
-i want to read and then watch "my sister's keeper"
-me and isabel had interviews today. and they went ehh. for me. idk about isabel
-i want to sleep.

yea. i think this post is done. and its pathetic. good nights peeeps.

oh oh oh. i forgot to add something.
its the indian eye!
<>_____<>
i stole it from angel. and i really dont use it. unless i'm talking ot afraz, cus he gets offended when i do this -____- and O___O is like white poeple? haha. but yea. the indian eye. :D

sunaay ):

gah. its sunday. ALREADY! we have school tomorrow. ): waaaah. thats not fair. so spring break was filled with a whole bunch of stuff. drama&fun. suprisingly they DID go together -___- i was soo busy yesterday so no post ): but car wash was FUN FUN FUN! ahahhaa. and tiring. --x. all of us were so excited rihgt? and then we jsut got tired towards the end. 7.5 hours of washing carrs. but it was still fun. there were a lot of baked gooods. teeeee heee. who doesnt like cookies? ;D OH. AND ON THAT. CHRIS IS A COOKIE-STEALER, (and hypocrite BD).but still. cupcake stealing is more fun. cus that cupcake was beeetter. wink wink red-cross-cancer-survivor-event-goers wink wink. hahhha. well back to car wash stuff. new paragraph xD

so carwash eh? it got sooooo hot afterwards. holly crappy. and then we started spraying each other with water. and chris and alice totttttally got soaked. so chris took his shirt off. and showed of his swimmer abs. and alice took her's off and stayed with herr tank. SO! frankie go made them stand in the front and publicize, so we could get more customers..but didnt really work. did it. ;D and then. jeremy's brother came and we washed his car. and he made jeremy wash the inside too. haaaaaaaHA, that was funny. ,hmm. what else happend? OH. me and andy went to cpe to get hot dogs. well andy bought it, and i watched him eat it. HAHA. after that more cars. i think i did more publicizing in the front rather than wash those cars. alice and chris were always on the side. and spraying each other. so all the juniors and sophies that they were a couple. (and garsh, they did look like one). :O ask anyone! i have pictures of that ;D (shorry alice and chris. ahah) hmm anything else? oh we took like pictures at the end cus there were no cars. and when we were ready to leave like three cars came in to be washed. -_________________- PATHETIC. and then me and jeremy walked home. thats carwash overview? but you should have been there to enjoi that fun ;D HAAAAAHA. OH OH OH. and yea. chris is a maj flirt ;D

OH MYY GAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. i'm first for red cross interview tomorrow DDD: HOLY CRAP. i'm sorrta nervous now. but i reaallly want to do it. i'm just gonna be myslef. :D help my guys tomorrow. i might need some hugs right before lunch tomorrow. >]

hmm. thats about it?? OH. yesh. i love sterling knight. (: that boy is shhooo cute.

sterling knight <3

new obsesssion? hahaha. i honestly love hiiiim.

17 AGAIN!

YAAYAYAY. today was sooooo much fun. (: i love that movie. it is soo cute. <3>] it was jeremy, me, tiffyeh, catherine, angel, then joe. us non-couples. yaaaaaaay. (:

it was soo freaking fun. i'll upload the pictures in the next post cus i'm at my friend's house tee hee. but but but, i love that movie. first scene=amazzzing ;D shirtless. KEKEKEEKKE. ;D and then. alex and the scarlet lady looked soooooo familiar. so i went home and researched them.. and it was sterling knight <3 style="text-decoration: underline;">i cant put a picture of that boy here. ): daaaaaang it. not coool. but i still love hiiim
he's the sunny with a chance dude. (: LOVE LOVE LOVE. ;D hmm.
zac efron was prettty nice looking too. "if he was an apple, he would be delicous" mmmmmmmmmmmmm.

amaaaaaaaaazing. ;D
OH! and i saw the poster for "fighting" CHANTIGN TATUM. <3 fun fun fun. :D there's a whole bunch of movies that we saw for the previews >] but i cant remember themm. OH. IT WAS my sister's keeper. that movie loooks so sweeet, and sad. thats our next movie. :D

and after the movie we had lunch. like at two -___- more like jsut food. HAAAAAAHA. but eyyyya. it was all couple-ey (: i got so many ccute picturessss. i'll post em on face book. but there such "aww moments" and then tim flipped me off. so yeaaaa. -___- but the other ones were cute. and then we went to borders and chris became all wierd and creepy. haha. and he randomly just left. -_- thanks for saying bye? but whatever. all the creepiness was gone. haaaaaahaha. bye chris platt. (:

i'm so excited for tomorrow. CAR WASSSSSSSH! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. :D and a whole bunch of people are gonna be there. yes yes yes? me, jeremy, angel, isabel, alice, chris, ralph?, andy, kaajal. see freshmans are takign over. not really. but still <3>] and after that school. yipee (sarcasm). -___- but yesh. that just means i get to see alllll of you. and lots of interview stuff. :D like red cross and inner council. exciteeeeeeed much! and a tad bit nervous. i could saaay.

i'm happy now :D most of my problems are basically fixed.

superman?

angel. i freaking love you. <3 sorry i had to leave though. stupid ortho appt. -___- but yes. i love you (: and just like angel mentioned names. i am too.

alice: i love you dearie. but just liek angel said, i think that you are drifting from me. and i do think that sometimes, you would like to spend more time wiht them rather than me. and i dont know if its true or not >.< but we neeed to get closerr. saay may 1st?? we do something AFTERWARD? (after social?)

sarah: it bugs me how you and mary sit at the grasss >] just sit at the table! ahaha.

chris: your drifting to boy! we need to fill that gap up. but i dont know when.

and now to the thank yous??
jeremy: listening to my rant and giving me cheeasecake! MWHAHAH.

angel: giving me some sense. hahha. even though charles said "stop" it came out better from you

tiff: hmm. i dont know. maybe your presence just helps? ;D

catherine: calling me baccck. even though i didnt need to rant anymore

so i took a bloodtest today. -____- i had bloodtests, nbut the lady was really nice. she distracted me. and guess what? her daughter went to whitney and graduated last year! hahaa.

and i ddint growwwwwwwwwwww ): i really thought i did. THATS NOT FAIR. i'm still 5'6. i want to groww. i was so sure i was like at 5'6 1/2. DANG IT. i need to grow. grow grow grow

so i was at the doctor's right. and when your bored, what do you do, you read a magazine. so i was look at this parent magazine. and saw these little convos. they're soo cute. <3
mom: ok. so you call 911 for an emergency.
son: ok.
mom: like for a policeman or a firefighter
son: for superman too?

AWWW CUTE CUTE CUTE!

so in a car there is a grandma, mother, and grandaughter.
grandma to mom: so i washed the bed sheets today.
grandaughter to grandma: did you wet your bed grannie?

ADOORABLE!!
sister and brother.
sister throws a toy at twin brother and gives him a black eye.
mother is reading a bedtime story to brother
mother: so the boy had a black eye
brother: maybe his sister through a toy at his eye to.

LOOOOOOOLS. i love that little boy. (:

and and and. i met this lady at the doctors place. she was soooooo sweeet. she had a brain hemirige? its when like she doesnt remember stuff really well. and the lady was soo sweeet. and we had a little conversation. (: maybe i can work at a place that helps these kinds of poeple??? that'll be fun!!

i'm sooooooooo excited for tomorrrow. YAYAYAYAY. its gonna be exciting guys! be there at 11. (: and dont be late. hahah. come come come. <3 <

and maybe we can chilllllll afterwardds. and then on saturday CARWASH. MWHWHHA! and i think ID practice is cancelled ):

in the meantime. i should be reading farenheight 451..but i still need to get it. >] how many chapters is it anywyasss?

and i forgot to add a "i never realized"
-how i love my title. its such an "archie" title. HAHAHH

i hate the doctors. -_____- they make you feel sooooo insecure. and make you like AI;GHH. and like you promise yourself to do a whole bunch of things. like eat healthier. run. exercise. lose wieight. but honestly, that never happens. well for me anyways. so i need help ;D from you! make me run. ahhaa. IM me and tell me to go run around and exercise. haaaaaaahahaha
and the doctor siad i was slighlty anemic. -___________________- what the hell is that? i guess i get to go do some research.

anemic: a condition in which the blood is deficient in red blood cells, in hemeglobin, or in total volume

UH OH. not good. -____- i also had slight scoliosis. my whole body is jacked up. i have flat feet. i have astigmatism. my back stresses reaaaaaaaal easily. ARGH. buut i make it worse. ahha. i dont wear my glasses. i guess i should. i dont wear the arch support thing. it might help if i do. but i dont think i am going to. mabee just the glasses. tee hee. im bad.

woow. pretty long postt. fun fun, wasnt that?

never realized. :O

spring break makes you think! hahaha. and i never realized sooo many things. its craaazy. so heres my list. i dont think you would want to read it. it'll bore you. ahhaha


i never realized...
1) how much i love chris daughtry
2) i love the guitar, but my mom wont let me buy one >]
3) how much i love john mayor. and his songs <3
4) how much i love my indiannesss. ;D
5) how much i love to sing (indianess). i think only jeremy knows what i'm talking about
6) how much stress relieving playing my indian drumms is. i think jeremy knows this to. HAHA
7) how indian dancing involves so much butt shaking :O (international day!) HAH
8) how it seems a song is talking to you
9) how school isnt really "just school" anymore
10) how i miss my young years, and how im stuck in this teenage years. -___-
11) how fast we are moving along. soon we'll be filling out those college apps. ):
12) how a guy can hurt a girl, and think everythings all right. (last year guys. dont jump into conclusions)
13) i love jason mraz (:
14) the friends you've had since kindergarden will always stick there. haha
15) the older you get, you never fight with your closest friends. the friends you've had since like your born >]
16) how bloggign sorta becomes an addiction.
17) how walking to school becomes a habit, and getting a ride gets wierd. hah
18) how much you can talk to a friend, and theres still soo much to talk about. (jeremy! hah)
19) people/drivers can be inconsiderate of others/walking, biking poeple
20) how much global warming is gonna affect our generation
21) how whintey isnt just studies.
22) how short spring break seems. ):
23) how scary a doctor's visit can be >]
24) how food coloring can REAALY affect water.
25) how good nandi can bake! >] HAH
26) how fun cooking is (:
27) how this economy is affecting us. -_______-
28) how long this post is gonna be.
29) how the school year is almost done. and i cant wait to leave to india (:
30) that something a friend says isnt always true.

thats my list. if your reading this, you obviously survived >] enjoi your last few days of spring break. cus baaabes, schools gonna start soon. (:

things to look forward to:
ID practices
ralph's bday
mun conference? maybe haah
carnival
friend's sweet 16
tiff yeh's bday (:
ID!!!
friend's 21st bday (:
angels' bday (:
alohhhhhha!
shanti culture show.
bolsa chica. <3
comps -____- not looking forward to that.
last day of school.
india <3

the unappreciated bestfriend

life is changing, and not for the good. the people who i thought were by best friends, well. bye bye. the ones that i didnt even consider this year, they have held my back. i just cant believe so much can go through spring break. its soo ARLKDHG AKH. just when i think everything is solved, a whole new mess starts up.

tiffany: i love you. (: and i will support you on your revolution. cause honestly, i think we DO need one.

you know what this reminds me of? its reminds me of a science experiment that we did. and here's how it goes. you can interpret any way you want to.

the water is still. and everything is calm. and you add a new substance, and the water is never the same again. its a different color, and it cant be changed to the original. THIS is what is happening to our small little group. make your interpretation. caues you know what, this whole "analogy" is gonna take a differnt turnn. i say this, someone reads it. thinks i mean something else. tells their friend, and you know the rest of teh story.

sometimes, i wish everything had stayed the same. our 7th and 8th grade years. becuase THOSE were the best. this year has definately been the worst.

so i was doing a facebook quiz. i think it was "what type of friend are you in your group". and i got the unappreciated bestfriend. wow. how perfect right?

"You try to keep everyone happy, and sometimes at your expense. You foot the bill when you're all out to celebrate, just so everyone can have a good time and not worry about money. You'd do anything for your friends, even though they forget to thank you or don't show you the appreciation you deserve. Although it's nice that you're being everyone's rainbow, think about yourself, too. No one will think you're a bad friend if you say no to some of their requests"

please dont comment if your just gonna criticize this post. cuase i know i'm gonna get enough of that once school starts.

jeremy's house

hey hey hey! i'm at jeremy's house. waiting for isabelllll! WHERE ARE YOU GIRLIE. i've been trying to call you for teh past 1 houuuuuuuuuuur. so yea. for that signature i thought it was chris to, but the first part. it has like V adn like I and liek T and yeaaaaaaaaa. person person person tell me if its you. pleaseeee (:

and solution for my problem, the second one: i'm tired of fighting. and its kinda stupid, cus i started it. ): so PERSON. im sorrry. but please dont forget me again. cus that hurt. ( i reaaaly really wish i knew if you read this. maybe you dont cus i most likly made you mad. ) sorry sorry sorry. ): friends?

shadows and regrets.

monday with out school! yipeeeeee. i finished my math packet. today had 2 problems. one small and oen big. the small one, me and jeremy and emily cant find a day to have our movei marathon! D: it was supposed to be friday, then sunday, then tuesdaaay. ): and we cant have it tomorrrow. but i really want to go. its gonna be soo much fun. i'm talking to jeremy right noww! i guess we are having it tomorrow. (: fun fun fun.

second probleeem. i dotn wanna talk about. well i guess i am. ahaha. its a blog! i talk about these thingsss. person ( i dont even know if you read this, or if you know its you im talking to), i felt ignored. and forgotten. and thats what ticked me off. also, i dont think you came up with this on your own. if i hadn't ranted to anyone, i dont think you would have figured out. so, dont forget me. cus we've been through a lot. it would help so much if i know you actually read this. if you read this, i think you'll understand. its just the state of being in the dark, hopless. cus i didnt know what i did wrong, and the whole time, it wasnt even me. and i'm not saying i hate you. cus i really dont. but until you figure it outt, i guess its gonna be like this. ):

i just realized i had a third problem. ahha. but this one isnt so serious. i was looking through my chrismas cards today cus i felt bitter. and i found this really cute card, btu i dint know who it was from. and now it bugs me. someone signed it, but its like thsoe crazy signatures that know can read. so i was stuck for like 30 minutes trying to figure out who it was. the note is soo cute. i think i know who it is. but it jsut doenst seem like the signatureee.

heres that very mysetrious signaturee. own up perrsssssssssson (: this is gonna bug me for a whileeee. hahhaaha

sundaay!

today was pretty much a regular sunday-ish. got up. sunday school. class. and theeen. we went shoppping! so my bfffff mucho is having her indian sweeet 16 this year. YIPEE. so we went to find a nice pretty indian dress. that is also cheapp. money wise. ;D and guess what?! WE FOUND ONE. and it was sooo prettty. and it was cheap. perfect right? and i was happy for herr. and then. SURPRISE! my mom was like, look for one. we might get it :D COOLIOS RIGHT? cus i was just gonna wear an old one. but i guess not. we still need to ask mi padre. but stilll. :D the though countss! so yeaaaaa. and my spring plans chaaaaaanged. agaiin. so here it is all over aggain!

monday-hw day. (ID practice is during classs ) ):
tuesday-I WANT TO DO SOMETHING. i dont wanna stay at home
wednesday-bowling w. anushaaaa. <3
thursday- BIRTHDAY PARTY
friday- 17 AGAIN at 12. at TC (: come come come. and then jeremy's house with emily hwang. pd 3 math bodnign time. FINALLY!
saturday-CARRRRWASH. the whoole day. 7 hours of voluntteeering with jeremy and isabel! and possibly angel and alice! fun fun funn.

i finally watched my twilight dvd that day. rob pattinson=hotttie. (: i cnat wait for new moon. same group peeeps. remember us 10 poeple? all girls except chris...gay or pimp? HAH Ajk jk. (:

"i'm here an i love you. i have always loved you, and i will always love you. i was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second i was away. when i told you thath i didnt want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy"
~edward cullen, new moon

saturday

its saturday. nothing much. -____- i'm bored. i'm mad. i'm not in a happy mood. end of post

spring break! yahoo!

YAY. ITS FRIDAY MORNING! FIRST POST OF SPRING BREAK. well i'm supposed to work ont aht position paper. actually i'm in a pretty good posiiont right now. i need to do Part three for all three of my topics and resolutions for all of them..so abut 4 hours? maybe? i'mm gona be soo happy when this ends. STUPID CONFERENCE. but anways its sprrring (: and i am fillllllled up! haha. i've never had this much to do over spring break. but thers always time for YOU. so wanna meet up?? hahaha. this is so far my fun schedule. i'm nto even gonna post up my hw on this. why ruin the mood?

"sunday-shopping with anusha (: and then park with tiffany?
monday- INTERNATIONAL DAY PRACTICA! 3-5 ;D
tuesday-bowling with anusha(:
wednesday- HOMEWORK DAY D: so call me up, and we can work on it together ;D
thursday-jess partay, bj's then chuck e. cheese. I HAVNT BEEN THERE IN SO LONG
friday-17 again, and then jeremy's house for movie marathon with emily. :D
saturday-carwash!
sunday-CHILLAX."

i thought we were going to chris's house. 0.0 me alice and tiff...what happend to thattt?

but yesh. this is my plan-o. call me upppppppppp(: and dont forget me over spring break. cus I'LL be thinking of YOU!

mun D:

so i'm supposed to work on that MUN position paper right now. i did work on it..a little bit. i really dont wanna go to wcimun :O i'm trying so haaaaaaard to convice frankie, i hope its working. cus i dont wanna do this conference..but i need that exttra credit. so my other option: HUNTINGTON! i didnt even get a choice for this conference. i jsut got put in it. is that faair? i dont think so >] so god, please help me go to huntington. :D


"the odds are always stacked against us. mistake after mistake. i'll never critiseze romeo again"
~ who would say that? ;D

crazy uncrazy tuessday

we got out earlly today. yahooooooo! but i guess it was productive. i finally started on that stupid position paper. argh i'm gonna get screwed over this weeek. i need to do threeeee topics in threeeeee days. and i cant bs it either cus i want a GAVEL! so that means i actually have to work. how fun right? well i have alll of friday to do it. cus its due by 11.59 friday night. tee heee. today was borrrring. nothing happend. well i got two more projects -____- spanish and english. spanish i have charles as my partner! collio? and english, i dont know what to do my career thing on. help? i hope that interest inventory helps :D well two more days till spring break and 50 more days of shcool left( w.o the weeeknds, but including spring break). smile on that thought. tomorrow i'm gonan go to the carreeer speeaker. cus we need TWO by the end of the year. and i havnt even done one yet D: and i dotn like procrastinating..so come with me. it'll be fuuunnn. you know why? cus i'll be ther and you'll be theree. and we shall bondddd :D i'm listening to perfect time of day by howie daaay.

this quote is for alice z. if you read this. comment dearie :D. wait. i dont think you can comment with those new layout. hmm facebook commment ;D that works.

"the fairy tale was back on. prince returned, bad spell broken. i wasnt sure exactly what to do about the leftover character. where was his happily after?"

~ do you know what i'm talking about aliceee? think archie..and think books ;D

love flies away

today was a pretty coolio day :D except the fact that i had to get up early for my class. but after that it was funno! i had dance practice and then tiff came over and we did that project in TWO HOURS?! two hoursss. :D tee hee. and she called eric and totlaly creeeped him out. it was funny. i wanna see what eric's gonna tell me in brannen tomorrow >] and then after that i went back to my friends house :D yiipeee! yahooo!

garsh. i think i'm thinking to hard. i think i should just chill down a little bit. and slooww down, and enjoi life. right? everythings going by soo fast. schools gonna be over. and then 10th grade and then 11th and then 12th and then COLLEGE! do you see that quick transitions?? COLLEGE! LIKE THE BIG HUMONGO SCHOOL TIHNIGGGE! ): i dont want to leavee whitney. its my life. even though it causes me so much trouble. i climbed up those stairs.. and i fell on top of them too. actually i fell alot. >] next time you see me tripping around, ready to fall, catch me please (: i have enough bruises to last me a while.

i feel like i'm drifting away from a lot of poeple. and it doesnt help ): i need those people in my lifee! dont drift away. i need you here. :D its like the wind is pushing the clouds awwaaay. and everyday, it the bond gets farther and farther aparrt. so yea, please dont go away <3 i need YOU.

just to cheer myself up, i'm gonna add this quote. its so pretty. oh BTW! I GOT THE TWILIGHT DVD. you soooooooo wanted to know that. dont hide that smile. tee hee. :D

"before you, my life was like a moonless night. very dark but there were stars-points of light and reason. ..and then you shot across my sky like a meteor. suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. when you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. i couldnt see the stars anymore. and there was no more reason for anything"
"your eyes will adjust"
"thats just the problem-they can't"

that the kinda guy i want. i i'll wait. i'll wait under the stars for you, my love. somewhere out there, perhaps, over the rainbow ;D

4th quarter. finally

my comps were ehh. but its only quarter compss. i have a whole other quarter to raise those b's up!! i'm really not in a moood to right a blog post right now. but might as well do it right? cus i already started. so today. history comp -___- i studied soo hard. like freaking 8 hours, and i get a c+ on that comp? i dont think soo. i think something went wrong with that machine. thats not FAIR. LIFE ISNT FAIR. sometimes, i wonder. why do we do all of this crap when were just gonna end up dieing....its not like a 4.0 or stanford is gonna help me in heaven -_________- god. i'm just so mad! >:O but on the better note, knotts was so freaking fun. there was like no line for ANYTHING, so we were able to go to like all the craaazy ones. our little group was me, angel, sunny, jessica park, hanna, and lucien (: and guess what?! i had a FUNNEL CAKE! those craaaazy good thingggies. it was so much fun, i wouldnt have missed it for anythingg. so next we have a good activity..come! cause no matter what, its teh bonding that makes it amazing. the new freindships that you make. i feeel soo emo right now. i just wanna go do something bad. and i dont know why. its just depressing. and i cant think of anything that would lighten my mood up right now. i guess i can go to sleep, but whats the fun in that? its like only 10. but yesh. i'm gonna think about this year. cus 4th quarter is hereee.

i didnt like this year. academically and socially. academically, my grades werent that good. but i can still improve it. but socially, what can i do about it? i just feel by myself, in a little corner. in my own little bubble. but it just seems like that. and i dont know. this year jsut wasnt good. and i would love to go back and change it. there are so many mistakes that i made. and i'm sorry ): i dont know. i just really dont know. i cant seem to remember all of the good times. it seems so overshadowed by MY mistakes. and i'm sorrry guys. i really trully am. if i hurt you in any waay. from teh bottom of my hearrt, i really do mean it. and i'm gonna try to be better. but right now, i dont see how. so recap of this year: IT SUCKED. i hope the rest of the year is more fun. well it should be. we have ID, and aloha, and spring break, and yeaa. i really do hope it changes a couple of thingss. i dont want to bee the samee. i dont want to be sad and mad. argh.

bad post. sad post
and the shadow of the day
will embrace through old and gray
and the sun will set for you.