so i was wrong about people not reading blogs anymore. AHAH .

HELLO RALPH. (: i didn't know that you still used blogger x] and i think JOELEE's here too! HAH.

im getting so uncreative. i cant even think of titles for these. but whateverr.

sigh. so every time i see your smile, it just takes my breath away. and i know its wrong. but i cant seem to say no. AHAHA.

^ THAT SOUNDS SO WIIIEERD.

im tired of bitching. so im just not going to. freaking pointless. --x

hello. blogger.

"reunited and it feels so gooooooood"

WAH. i wish you were older than me. ): or atleast the same age.

i havn't posted in so long. and blogger is so out of it. so now i can rant all i want. and not many poeople would read. i dont think anyone would. so here it goes.

i always say im gonna get over you. and guess what happens? I DONT. i find something to hold on to. something you said or did for me. some small thing that probably means absolutely nothing to you, but for me, it means so much more.

yes. i know now im overreacting. and i should stop my bitching and whining and get on with life. and life will never be fair. and it just sucks for me. but. im done. i honestly cant handle it anymore. im tired of wearing a smile that doesnt even apply to me. im tired of hurting myself (emotionally) when all along, i KNEW something like this would happen. why? cus thats the story of my life. it just goes downhill. no matter what. sure i can enjoy little bits and peices, but at the end, what is it worth?

my life isnt a fucking movie or a fairytale were everything ends happily ever after. and now i really should stop whining because there are people wiht bigger problems then me. so for now

i'm gonna put you in the baaaackest part of my brain. and hopefully, you'll just vanish. its not that i dislike you are anything. actually, i'd really regret if i lose you as friend. but i WANT to get over you NOW.

so tomorrow. i'll have the biggest smile on my face. pretending nothing could posssibly be wrong.