i'm always gonna be the one person left out. always. theres always more prettier. or more gorgeous. or more beautiful girls out there. and i'll always just be in the shadow. its just a given. and its starting to really bug me now. last year. i didnt care that much. i dont know why. but this year i do. you know why? cus i see a patern coming along. i dont want this to happen to me. but its going.
i was looking at all those prettiful pictures that people take before a dance. and i saw this one picture with 4 girls. and i was like "aw. thats kinda sad that they dont have dates. they went stag". and now i realize. that im gonna replace one of those girls.
school is just reaally really sucky right now. on the good note, my grades are going up. except in spanish. but i can raise that up. does that mean i see a 4.0 comign this semester?
UGH. i cant stop thinking about freaking formal season. my mood is complete OPPOSITE from last year. i sorta dont wanna go now. i kinda agree with angel on this one "theres no one to get prettied up for" -__- its just not gonna happen.
so i guess i shouldnt go. who cares if i dotn go to all the high school dances. its not like im gonna get an award or something. --x its just me saying "i've gone to each and everyone......stag". FML. that sounds so loner-ish. so i can just say "i went to a lot of dances" big difference --x
unless something miraculous happens. or i have a drastic change of mind. im not going this year.
what a perfect way to start winter break eh?
"there's no such thing as a miracle"
you're beautiful, shree.
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