hello there! i know you don't have a blogger. so you wont read this. so i can write whatever the hell i want. YUUPPEEE.

dear _______.

there are so many things i could write here, but when i see your face, i just have to wear that smile and act like im not frustrated inside. i cant subtly hint at what you are doing cus that would just ruin things and make it even worse. but the stupid part is that you dont even KNOW what you ARE doing. i've been trying so hard to not make this friendship fall apart. but its just one way. i know that you know that we havnt been doing much this year. but you just sit and watch. while im trying to fix it. this cant be one waaay. maybe this is when i say "fuck it" and just give up. i've done it before. and of course it hurts. but since this wouldnt be the first time, it shouldnt be too hard. and maybe you'd realize that im not there anymore. and we can play and be how we used to be last year. BUT i highly doubt that. cus you are just a lazy ass -___- and you wouldnt make any changes and i'm tired of feeling as if im bugging you or annoying you. when i've made so many attempts and asked you if your free this day or that day or the next day and your reply is "uuuhhmmmm" i get it. I GET IT. all you have to do is "oh. i think im hanging out with someone else" or even better, "i dont want to hang out with you" cus honeslty, "UHHMM" is just fuckign FALSE HOPE. i've been hurt before, so its nothing knew. it'll pass on.

your forgotten friend.

archie.

it feels good to write it out.