i'm so giddy. HOHOHO.

and i'm happy. just for the moment. and i'm going to cherish it. i'm not going to let anyone, or anything bring me down.

i went to an engagement party thing today (indian thing. ahah). but it was kinda cute. and i can't wait to meet my soul mate. or how i like to think of it, my prince charming. AHAHAHAH. i've never been asked out, gone on a date, kissed, or had an adventure with that special someone, and i'm totally okay with that. (this isn't a rant. its just whats been on my mind.). and i look at people aroudn me. and they seem so happy without that soulmate. like my dearest friend angel said. "your time will come" <3 but im so excited for that! to meet that person. and get to know them. and learn small thigns about them. find a soulmate that i can gush too, and be myself around, and yeaaaah. (:

here's to a drama free senior year!

i always think about why certain things happen. why am i in asb this year? because shit would come along, and asb-ers are the ones to help me out <3 i love them so so so much. and i dont know where i would be without them this year. so many new, amazing people i've met.

not having a good day. i want comfort food + friends right now. but i dont think thats going to happen.

i

am

so

confused.

i dont know what to do. or how i feel. or what i think i should do. or if its even worth it. ): self-esteeem slightly going down.

but apart from that, i guess i can say i've been happy so far. there's nothing really bringing me down. and its just an amazing feeling.

‎"sometimes i feel like talking to you but then i realize you don't care and neither do i"

first pay check! im so happy. (: disneyland is just a little bit closer.

so lots of personal thinking today!

i remember when i used to feel super left out. and right now, i dont feel like that anymore! i think i got closer to a certain few, and because of that, i dont have to feel left out.

i want someone to mess with. to be silly with. to go on adventures with. someone to have when i want to go play.

i'm still searching for that someone :D

gotta keep your head up. (oh, oh)

and you can let your hair down (eh, eh)

i pray for my family, and we can get through this together.