can i ever just be happy?

GOD DAMMIT! once i have a wonderful school life. everything at home goes down the road. ITS NOT FAIR. i freaking always get blamed. and its so F******G annoying. iits like god doesnt WANT me to be happy. JUST ONCE. just once. for so long i've been trying to balance both out. but it doesnt. when i go home its all about SCHOOL. and BAD grades. i honestly dont give a f**k. its THIRD QUARTER. the grades dont even count. and the thing is, my moms on my side. usually. its my dad! "ALDK JIAGFHG" UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. and its not fiar. its ALWAYS me. and hes SO FREAKING protective and authoritative. so i cant wear sweats to schoool. FINE. can i wear it to ID practice? cus its kinda hard dancing in jeans. "NO! ITS NOT NICE TO WEAR SWEATS OUTSIDE. ITTS INSIDE HOME CLOTHES" no its fkreaing not. and my mom was like -__- what the helll. and then he gives me a whole freaking lecture on how i dont listen to him. and i always tell him no. WELL WHAT THE HELL CAN I DO. IF I DONT WANNA DO IT? SAY YES? and then i get a whoooooole NOTHER lecuture on how hes been here for like 15 years, and how he knows the dress code and crap. NO YOU DONT! things CHANGE. the word CHANGE. but no. doenst understand it cna you? ARGH. and now. i'm gonna get the whole lecture on how "you dont wnat me here. i dont have respect here. blah blah blah" MAYBE! if you would just lisnten to me. FOR ONCE. things would change a little. WHAT HTE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?

life is cruel. i can never be happy. can i? everything is just falling apart.

its kinda blurry, but it says "i can always make you smile"

friday?

today was actuaally pretty fun i would saay. :D uhhm lunch. i traded with andy. :D so he got my indian cup noodles. and tim chai gave me his chips and salsa :D and then yeaaa. we had like a "teasing fight" (LOLS) with mary and abi. :D THAT WAS FUN. but it was MEAN. >] but since we all knew that it doesnt mattter, like we didnt mean it personally, it was fun (: right right? but chris cant tease people -__- well. i owned. ;D and then what else? yeaa. i really wanted a drink. but nope. ): i didnt get it. and theeen. yea. lunch is over. then after schoool! i like helped little 8th graders for like 10 min, then didn spanish project, then went to swim. well i was outside with michelle, andy, shivs, and paley for a long time. :D and we talked abotu IC STUFFF. btw, those interviews are commmmin up! and hten i went inside to watch the meet. TIM IS FAAST! he got 1st, 2nd, 1st, and 1st in his four eevennnts. but we still didnt win. stupid cerritos. but akio is kinda cuteee. but jen told me that he was like a "dumb blonde". JAHAHHA. and then i came back and went to see social deco. and it was CRAAZY! it was soooo cooooool :D i'm soo proud of theem. they got 118 poeple. but we still beat them with 122. ;D YAY AMRI! and theeen. yea. alice was gonna stay with me, but she had to leave (and i'm not mad at you. ahhaha). so me and tim had bondingg time! yipee. we played cards, and then i took him inside to see the decorations, and then we talked abotu HIS little soccial last year. and hten yea. so today was pretttty fun. tomorrow is INTERNATIONAL DAY PRACTICE! 2-5 be theeeree.


ISABEL CHUA. I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTTER GIRLIE. I WANT TO SEE THOSE HUUUUGE EYES.

and guess what guess what guess waht! ITS MAAAY FIRST. PRIMERO DE MAYO. WHATEVER YOU SAY IN FRENCH. ITS MAAAAAAAAAY BABBY. AND THAT MEANS SCHOOLS ALMOST OVER.

i'm reallly happy now. so imma add something else.

I LOVE YOU MY FRIENDOS!!

Everything changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I maybe dreamin'
But 'till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall

teeth shaving?

yo yo yo! i'm in the media lab durign 5th period. for brannnen! nex to me is jane and gary. gary's playing TETRIS!, and jane's searchign teeth shaving. cus apparently she has buc k teeth. but i dont think so. :D janes prettty. and then she saw this. i think shes look at this right now.
HAHAH. but back to teh story. she saw it. and she stole teh mouse adn started typing on my bblog.! but she was typing in her OWN keyboard. so she was writing in her OWN computer. not mine. yea. its sounds confusing no0w. but it was hillarious :D

blogging in brannen is fun (: OH GUESS WHAT! i'm gonna see akio today. :D and jaimini is gonna intorduce me to him. i heard hes pretty cute ;D TE EHEEEE.