i've never been this upset. just a single thought can give me fear. and i don't like that one bit.

truth is, not all friendships are going to last. and i need to stop worrying about why it never worked out, and just remember all the exciting moments and conversations that i've had. i need to cherish the good memories, and move on from that.

i absolutely cannot start moping about why this happend, or would it be different if this happend.

i need to be thankful for the memories that i have made with them, and continue on, making memories with others.

however, some friendships do last, and it is important for me to not take them for granted. these people have kept me motivated, cheerful, inspired. i am not the person i am today without their influences.

i hate how sometimes, somethigns in your head look SO much better than how it actually turns out. ):

i thought the stuff i was doing christmas would be cute. ): but now, i really don't like it. and i feel bad cus im giving it to other people, and of course they'd be like "omg. archie. thank you. its so cute" adn blah blah. but i feel like they won't like it ): like. at all.

so im sorry for the crappy present ):